A number of people choose to live in solitude ,an other amount of people have to live in solitude and a lot of people want to find solitude in the colleration with others.
I don’t know which cases I am really in,I just know that I have been live in my own solitude for quite a long time that I don’t remember exactly where is the beginning or where it should be the end of this journey.
Sometimes it’s good,sometimes it’s not very good ,sometimes it feels great ,sometimes it feels not really great. But I enjoy every moment of my single life.
I thought I could handle each and every issue in my life with the help of no one. Because I have no one beside but me.Because I thought every one was already taken, already busy with their own lives. I thought they would not help me if I asked or I would bother their lives. I could make the whole surrounded people happy with my joys but I could never share my sadness and keep it on my own. So I got problems with asking for help.
Or I thought I could do every thing on my own and this would be the best choice. I exercise alone, I study alone, I eat alone, I go to movie theater alone, I travel alone, I go shopping alone, I coffee alone. I thought I could be happy all the time being alone but deep down I feel lonely every now and then.
But I think I could create happiness in my own little world.I can plan my whole day without the present of another person and enjoy it so much on my own. I feel so grateful to have time lying lazily on my bed reading To Our Youth That Is Fading Away.I can spend a whole weekend on my own, feeling awesome to listen new,old music bands or finishing a new book.
And I learn to how to be strong and stronger. Cause I know that I’m the only person could dedicate time to take care of myself and am also the person I should take care well among all.I can learn to ask for help later but I should be able to deal with my problems,my insecurities, my depression, and my life first.
Being in solitude is not good or not as bad as it should be. But it is a cannot missing part of me and a cannot missing ingredient to create the person I am today.